Eatins-- April 23-29

Monday April 23--

Breakfast-- Chick-Fil-A sandwich
Lunch-- Salad with raisins, apples, and spicy turkey
Snacks: Apple, peanut butter with almond butter
Dinner-- salad greens, rotisserie chicken breast, edamame hummus, tomatoes

Tuesday April 24

Breakfast-- Tacodeli Otto on corn (2) + iced coffee
Lunch-- Zen-- brown rice, peanut sauce, buddha mix (carrots, squash,...and other veggies), double meat dark chicken
Dinner-- salami, edamame hummus, blueberries

*Good news-- thanks to also eating a lot of benedryls, my severe allergy reaction is subsiding. This is important to eating, because it severely diminishes my appetite. Some might think that is a blessing, but its not. The only problem I currently have with the actual volume of food I eat, is that sometimes I undereat-- in terms of calories, but also nutrients. When my system is inflammed and full of ...congestion, it makes it hard to have the appetite that drives me to be prepared and eat healthy flavorful foods. Instead, I put off preparing/eating until only convenient choices are an option, and furthermore I gravitate toward bland fatty comfort foods. At this time last year (you think I'd learn) I remember only wanting to eat mashed potatoes with butter, and sending my nutritionist a frantic email about that, since its a terrible food choice for me. So appetite= good.

Wed April 25

Breakfast-- Tacodeli Otto on corn + iced coffee
Lunch: HEB HFCS Sushi
Dinner: Lemon Chicken with brown rice
Snacks: Bobo's Oat Bar Peanut Butter

Thur April 26
Breakfast-- 3 eggs + 2 Pedersons Breakfast Sausages
Lunch: Turkey, Hummus, and tomatoes.
Snack: Can't remember, but I feel sure there was one.
Dinner-- Fake Chicken Karaage-- Involves a rotisserie chicken, mint, basil, cilantro,onion, and jalapeno sauce lightly sauteed. Ain't no East Side Kings, but I enjoyed it. And cooked it myself!

Friday April 27
Breakfast: Chick- Fil-A-- must get back in the habit of cooking at home, dammit! But mornings are clearly starting to wear real thin...or real fat, as the case may be. #Teachingmakesyoufat.
Lunch: Fake Chicken Karaage! I was smart enough to make leftovers!!
Dinner: Chipotle-- Brown Rice Barbacoa Bowl with Chips. Note to self-- this, even without the chips, makes me uncomfortably full.

Sat April 28
Breakfast: Starbucks Sausage Sandwich + Iced Coffee
Lunch: Brown rice and salmon sushi from WF
Snack: Spoonful of almond butter
Dinner:  A long awaited East Side Kings-- Chicken Karaage (In this case, fried chicken thigh brined and served with basil, mint, cilantro, jalepeno, onion, and sweet chili sauce.) and Brussel Sprout Salad. They were sadly out of beets.

Sunday April 29
Breakfast: Two Ottos on corn tortillas.
Snack: Iced coffee and cake ball.
Lunch/ Dinner: Meatloaf with macaroni + broccoli
Snack: Guac + Red wine + carrots.

Oh yeah...I have a blog--Eatings-- Friday March 30- Thur April 5

So, I sorta forgot about my blog. Its a symptom of how I keep overcrowding my life in general. You know...with 3 email accounts, 2 twitters, a facebook, oh and two blogs.

So below is where I made a point to log in and keep track of my eatins two weeks ago. And then I forgot about writing stuff down...and may nutrition in general. Full disclosure-- since April 5, while I have continued to fit in healthy meals like eggs,spinach, and tomatoes for breakfast, I've also eaten brisket sandwiches, 2 Chick-Fil-A homophobic biscuits of hatred, Tacodeli, and a fried guacamole pie. My waistline suffers along with my self esteem. Oh and one day, after a derby bout, and I had a burger with the bun AND fries and I ate it all. ALL...it was amazing.

So...soon I'm gonna write a post thats both uplifting and super dark that will maybe kinda solve the mystery about whether or not I'm fat. It should be a jem.

I know you all want to know where I got that fried guacamole pie. Some pink trailer called The Bomb (or something like that) that is fortunately located in Dallas most of the time.


--Whole Foods eggs, oatmeal with almonds, raisins, and cranberries
Snack: WF sushi
Lunch: WF Tuna Salad
Dinner: Sandwich with chicken sausage and 1 slice cheese
Baby Shower: cheese, crackers, some sort of pancake, cupcake, chips, Makers and Ginger Ale

Sat-- Tacodeli-- 2 Ottos on corn, Starbucks Iced Coffee
Titayas Vermicelli Lover + spring roll

Sunday-- Starbucks sausage sandwich
Tacodeli-- One Otto, one bacon+egg+cheese that didn't come with bacon!
Dinner: Cobb salad with chicken and quinoa
2 Gins

Monday-- Eggs with spinach and chicken sausage
Snack: Ham and Lentil Hummus
Snack: Apple + Almond Butter
Dinner: Salmon + Asparagus
Snack: Fancy iced cream sandwich

Tuesday--Migas from WF with oatmeal and potatoes
Lunch: Chicken salad
Dinner: Baked chicken, greens, avocado

Fat Betty

What are the chances that I'm not gonna post about "fat Betty" after this Sunday's episode of Mad Men?

That's right...none. Here goes.

On the one hand, I'm a woman who puts "fat curses" on ex-boyfriends and then looks them up here and there on the FB to make sure it's working. (Sorry if any of you suckers are reading this. And by suckers I mean fat suckers.) So insofar as I've joined in with the love-to-hate-Betty aspect of the show, it was a delight to see her struggling into that dress. Total payback thinking that being beautiful and accepted as perfect by society assure you happiness. (Sorry Betty! It's actually being a smart mouthed muffin topper that gets you everywhere in this world. Trust me.) Payback for belittling Sally, etc.

However, the reason I put my famous fat curses on the exes, is because I know just exactly how much it sucks to feel out of control of your body. I know there are technically worse things, but when I think about shitty shit that could befall you, I think of fat. Or maybe its more appropriate to say that I think being leaner could bring them some sorta happiness, which I wish to deny them. I say this as, and I know you might have to just trust me on this because of how I sorta just said that thin = happy, but I say this as a fairly well adjusted fat woman who loves herself. (Seriously, I was admiring my own curves in the mirror today in yoga. In stretchy pants.) However, most of the worst pains in my life have been associated with weight in one way or another, and sometimes it feels like my life's greatest failure with a bunch of smaller related failures inside it. Even while I will tell you that its not that bad and is no way to define yourself, I'll also tell you that its unbearably sucky. That's probably a paradox.

So my point is that, even while I, in some ways, enjoyed the latest fate of the character Betty in shallow ways, more than anything I just plain got why this was supposed to suck so bad for her. And is so...anti- Betty. Not being able to find a goddamn suitable thing to wear, even though they all fit last month...been there. The reality check that causes...let me tell you how a flow chart about that would go: Realize your "fat" dress doesn't fit. Two choices-- decide this is the bottom and take some healthy action...or descend further into food related madness until even your beach mumu doesn't fit at which time a similar choice must be made. The reason I call this the anti-Betty is that her character has always valued the sort of control appearance brings her...over herself...others...perhaps because it was the only kinda of control available to her. And now even that is gone, and she finds herself in a changing world that she just couldn't possibly be prepared for...not like Meagan, whose damn dress zips. Gawd, that dress moment! I know many others get this too, because dresses are evil, and you don't have to approach anything even near fat to have such a moment; you just have to be bigger than you were.

Then there was the phone moment. The other wicked smart people in the room with me, thought maybe that she got bad news-- that she had cancer-- during the interlude where she wasn't speaking yet. My quickness in reading that look though was shocking even to me. (Really, I didn't even need the look.) The look was: "Oh, so I'm just fat." I've had mirror image moments of that conversation, except that I'm a mouthy smart mouthy mouth, who will say exactly that to the doctor, and try to force him to explain why he's content with having an overweight endurance athlete who eats healthier than average for a patient. No, not cancer people. Just fat. The difference is that Betty is terrified to live fat--might as well be a death sentence for her, and I think I can manage it. I guess.

Shit: I just sent this link to my nutritionist. Thankfully, I've eaten some good shit!

Of course I haven't followed my new plan of logging in to post my eatins on a draft and publish it at the end of the week, so I have to recall all that I ate. So hard, but most of it was awesome stuff, so maybe that will help.

Last Thur March 22...wait no...I already posted all the good shit there.

Friday March 23
Eggs
Guac and carrots
Crap...I really can't remember. I can say this: It was a good day of eating. Later, when I went to book club, I splurged on purpose though. After the salad with chicken(?) and chips with avocado, I had some sugar...in the form of a donut and pound cake. I also had a glass of wine, and no regrets, since the previous days had been healthy.

Sat: I cannot remember again, except that it was healthy. I even had a paramour over and fed him organic hummus, salami, chicken (oh shit...I had some rotisserie chicken on Thur? maybe) legs, spinach, and beer. I ate most of that. I think it was actually my dinner, so I may have been under calorie this day. Oh wait...I think I had eggs from breakfast and...CM meatballs and quinoa for lunch. With spinach.

Sun March 25
Earl Grey with a touch of cream
Starbucks sausage sandwich

Lunch: Chipotle -- salad with brown rice, black beans, carnitas, guac, and chips-- my new guilty pleasure. Is it okay if they function as a lettuce delivery vehicle? No?

Snack during Mad Men-- because I was so excited I forgot to eat!-- Sun Chips + a MamaKaze (any gin drink made by PapaKaze.)


Dinner: PTerrys burger with the bun.


Monday:
Breakfast-- Eggs with spinach
Lunch: crap...why can't I remember...well, I ate well all day. Oh shit...maybe I didn't. Did I go to Chipotle? Anyhow I felt good about my eating all day.
Dinner: Chicken breast with spinach, tomatoes, and hummus.

Tuesday March 27
Breakfast: Eggs (Has anyone noticed that I broke my Tacodeli habit?...very important as I actually want to live there.)

Snack: Iced coffee with cream, protein plate with cheese

Lunch: Salad with ham

Snack: Brown Rice Sushi-- keeping that counter at the WF open by myself.

Dinner: with Joe-- grassfed burger with havarti (does anyone see that this is 3 dairys? I paid the next day with painful inflammation) and a buttermilk bun. Greens, tomatoes, strawberries. Portions of several Lone Stars-- how do you lose your beer in your own house?


Wednesday March 28
Breakfast: Eggs and chicken sausage and strawberries
Lunch: 2 grassfed burger patties (no bun), ketchup, and a ton of green beans
Dinner: Salami with hummus and mixed greens

Thursday:
Breakfast-- Chick-Fil-A Homophobic Chicken Biscuit-- Look, I'm fine with the fact that I occasionally eat politically wrong chicken that's bad for me. I just want to know why they can't get the biscuit right every damn time. Its industrialized biscuits-- make them uniformly good!

Lunch: Turkey breast chunks with mixed greens and hummus

Snack: WF Sushi wrapper things

Dinner: Impromptu, post-derby, EAST SIDE KINGS!!!!!!!!! Beet fries with aioli. Chicken Karage! Beer. (Note to self: purple poop tomorrow is normal. Don't freak.)



Hmmm...I didn't eat as well as I thought, though it should be noted (mostly by me) that I feel like I ate healthy. 80/20 rule? Anyhow, this proves the importance of writing it down, aroundish the time/day you ate it. Also, I know I forgot a whole pack of probiotic yogurt, some plain tuna, and a chicken and avocado meal.

Update as of just now when I found my measuring tape: My body is doing what I like. Waist shrinking, rest staying the same. World, please be advised that when my breast/hip to waist ratio is more than 10 inches apart, I be dangerous.

Current measurements:
Overbust: 45
Waist: 34
Hips: 45.5

More Food Diary

I finally managed to get to the store so I could clear out some spring break toxins!

Wed March 21
Breakfast-- two eggs, two chicken sausage links
Snack: Tuna cup with applesauce
Lunch: Smoked salmon (6oz) on a salad with blackberries and tomatoes
Snack: WF salmon sushi, hummus and guac with carrots
Dinner: Cowboy burger patty served on greens with tomatoes, ketchup, and baked sweet potato slices

Thur March22
Breakfast-- nutritional shake (WF Protein-- not my preferred mix, as it has fructose) w banana and coconut oil
Snack: carrots with hummus, Larabar
Lunch: Cowboy burger patty with baked sweet potato slices and ketchup-- forgot greens.
Snack: salami + hummus
Dinner: Roasted chicken 5 oz with guacamole, tomatoes, and greens

Coming soon: Forest of Nutrition Blah Blah Blah Part III

Eatin ALL the Montana!

Here's the details of what I have eatens

Thursday-- 2 eggs, 2 chicken sausages for breakfast, Taco del Sol Alaskan cod taco + pork taco for lunch, banana and almond butter, Montana BEEF burger with a half-mountain of sweet potato tots from Al & Vics/ James Bar. (It came with a whole mountain, but it was too much!) Bourbon, beer, and sad casino beer...oh and happy couch beer!

Friday-- Muscle Milk protein shake for breakfast, Earl Grey tea, Sashimi Cobb Salad from Iron Horse for lunch, Hummus made in Bozeman, carrots, and a delicious fig, basil, and chicken salad from Good Food Store. Also yogurt and granola with fruit. I feel sure that I am going to eat something else and have some beer at a brewery as soon as my friend gets off work. I feel like I might be short a few calories, but I'm gonna eat it purely for enjoyment. In case anyone is wondering how I feel about today's eatings, I hope that the last two posts may have clarified that this is eating how I mean to. At least until I get to the brewhaus!

Also, I did yoga today and walked all over a modest sized college campus. I don't often post about workouts, though everyone should assume that they are happening, but I think it is notable that exercise is such a long standing habit with me, that I do it on vacation too. Without even thinking about it.

Update: During the rest of my stay, I had some foods that were good for me and some that just damn tasted good. Highlights in the first category include a ahi tuna sandwich (never mind that bread ain't my friend), some chicken and broccoli, and a breakfast sandwich from the Good Food Store. The latter category would include all the beers of Montana and some tequila at one point...oh wait...two points, a JJ Breakfast Special from the Oxford that included eggs, hash browns, chicken fried fucking steak, and a spicy cream gravy that was delicious. Also I had a couple of teas that included sugar and a thai coffee cause you need a hot beverage in your hand at all times in Montana. Oh yeah, I had a bison burger with more sweet potato fries.

The Forest of Nutrition and Maybe Other Metaphors, Part II

So, somewhere between the discovery of eggs and visiting a nutritionist, I *think* I locked down how I *think* I should eat. I'm going to attempt to get to the point, then back up and do it in my usual wordy ass way. Here's "how I mean to eat" :

Do--
Eat at least 1600 calories per day, more based on workouts
Eat protein-- with every meal, min 4oz, preferred 6-8 oz
Eat veggies with every meal
Eat some fruit
Eat at least every couple of hours-- snacks with protein preferred
Eat servings of good fats every day, including small servings of nuts and avocados
Eat gluten free grains no more than once per day, preferably only once every couple of days or as needed with workouts
Eat organic and ethical products when possible
Eat two "free meals" per week while still respecting my health
Drink 100 + oz water
 

Avoid--
Under-calorie dieting. Forever, always.
Fat phobia
Dairy
Gluten
Sugar, esp in larger quantities, esp in processed forms
Processed foods
Meats with hormones, antibiotics, inappropriate diet, etc.
Caffeine
Excessive alcohol

Cultivate--
A love of real food
A base of recipes for my life
A healthy attitude toward food, including enjoyment and excluding shame

Here is a sample day of such eating

Breakfast: 2 eggs and 2 egg whites with spinach and tomatoes
Snack: Natural peanut butter (ingredients-- just peanuts) with apple or banana

Lunch: Leafy green salad with tomatoes, berries, nuts, and 8 oz chicken-- should be an incomprehensibly big salad. I could have an oil based dressing, but I hate everything about dressing so I don't. Rant later.

Snack: 2 oz +hummus, turkey, and carrots

Dinner: Meatballs and asparagus cooked in olive oil

I'm going to leave it at this for now, but publish an explanation of why this is my eating plan later, hopefully tomorrow.